Random Thoughts

I grew up in a kind of conservative family. All my life I was thought to be a good citizen of the world. Hahaha.

I started drinking when I was 21 years old. Of course that's not an issue now. I don't even go out late before, my routine was the typical House-School-House routine. My father would send me bazillion messages if ever I wasn't home by 6PM. Goodness. I can't even deal.

The 'rents wasn't actually strict. They actually let me be the person that I wanna be all those times. I can say that I choose being that kind of girl before. I don't like them getting upset just because of me.

That's kind of different now. I know that I am being too stubborn. I'd stay up late and won't go home unless I needed something from there. I just don't like being there, I feel so alone there. Yes, my parents house is where I should be staying. everything that I needed daily is there as well but what can I do? That house is too big for me. As what I've said, I feel alone there.

I am sorry for whatever I am doing wrong. I feel guilty for causing my parents worry and headache/

Lily.

Passion and Happiness.

April 29, 2015.

I can say that my life as of now is not special in any way. I am the kind of girl who would just go with the flow all the time. I can say that I don’t have any goals or any direction at all but I am 
trying my best to change that and find the right thing that I can do with my life and 
work around it with  passion and just be happy about it.

As of today, I am helping my Mom with her business, at the same time I am applying and 

working as an Vitual Assistant thru Onlinejobs and tutoring Japanese online. Finding an 

employer thru onlinejobs is not as easy as I thought it would be. I can say that I actually 

sent out 50+ resumes to different employers and so far I received 2 emails from them. 

I can see myself traveling the world one day and still sharing the things and the experiences 

I had in here. That would be my dream and I know one day I can reach that. 

So what should I really post here?

My life is boring and all I do is kind of a routine and I know you guys won’t like reading boring posts most specially if it is about me and my life. Hehehe. Just kidding. 

I guess you’ll just have to deal with it and everything about my life for now, huh?

Sincerely,

Lily J.