Kwento.

Hindi ko alam kung paano ko sisimulan ang blog post na ito.

Ganito na lang,

April 6, 2016...

Nagising ako around 10AM, ginising ako ng pamangkin ko dahil nagwi-widraw na daw ang Nanay nya (Asawa ng Kuya ko) ng pambili nya ng cellphone. Malapit na kasi ang birthday (April 8, 2016) nya noon. Wala kaming lakad ni Ivann nung araw na yun, kaya naman sinamahan namin sya sa SM. Masaya yung araw na yun. Nakabili agad kami ng gustong cellphone ng pamangkin ko, at ng tablet ng kapatid nyang mas nakakabata sa kanya, di kasi pumayag yung isa na hindi sya bibilhan. Naibili na rin namin ng hard case yung cellphone kasi gusto din daw nya nun.

Pauwi na kami, tawanan pa kami ng tawanan. Kumakanta kasi ang mas nakakabata kong pamangkin ng Lupang Hinirang, kaso hindi nya alam ang tamang titik sa kanta, mas nakaka-aliw kasi ayaw nyang baguhin ang titik ng kinakanta nya kahit na tinuturo naman namin sa kanya.

Kakalagpas lang namin ng Green Papaya, medyo nagbu-build-up yung traffic, may dalawang bus kaming kasabay sa daan namin pabalik ng Tagaytay, nakita namin na mabilis ang kasalubong namin. Mabagal ang takbo namin, nasa 30 - 40kph lamang kami.

Doon na kami naaksidente. Nahagip kami ng sinasabi kong kasalubong namin. Hindi na nakontrol ni Ivann ang manibela dahil sumabit ang gulong namin sa gulong ng nakasabitan naming sasakyan. Nagswerve kami sa kaliwang linya, bumangga sa pick-up na kasalubong din namin, nasa likod ang pick-up ng nakasabitan naming sasakyan.

Sa maiksing kwento...

Sira ang pick-up at ang sasakyan ko, gasgas at sira ang gulong nung isang sasakyan. Ayos naman kami. May bukol lang ako at bugbog ang katawan namin pareho ni Ivann. Dapat masesettle na namin lahat, medyo may mga pinag-iisipan pa yata yung may kanya nung isang sasakyan pero yung sa pick-up, maayos naman naming nakakausap.

Sa nangyayari sa amin ngayon, medyo hindi ako okay. Di ko din kasi alam kung saan kami kukuha ng pambayad. Kami kasi ang sinasabi ng imbestigador na may kasalanan sa nangyari, okay na yun, wala naman kaming magagawa kasi sabi nga ni Sir na nagimbestiga, matagal na sya sa larangang ganun at sa galos pa lang daw ng sasakyan, alam na agad kung sinong may kasalanan.

Pilipinas e.

Tinanong ba kami kung anong nangyari? No, binase lang sa galos. Pero sige, okay na yun. May witness din daw sila, na hindi nababali ang testimonya kasi nagta-trabaho as public servant. Sige. Okay na din.

Hindi naman kami tumatakas e, hangga't maaari gusto na naming matapos at masettle lahat kasi hindi kami makagalaw hangga't may ganyan. Wala namang may gusto sa nangyari. Aksidente. Para rin kaming pilay ngayon, katulad ng sinasabi nung may kanya ng isang sasakyan, napabayaan ang business at ang mga plano. Inuulit ko, hindi naman namin ginusto ang nangyari.

Nagpapasalamat na lang kami at ganito lang ang nangyari sa amin.

Sabi nga ng mga kapatid ko, paano kung truck na malaki ang nakasagupa namin?

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Sa mga kaibigan namin na nagtanong at bumisita sa amin, salamat. Okay pa kami. Dyan lang kayo, kailangan din kasi namin ng moral support.

Sa magulang ko, pasensya na po kayo. Hindi ko din naman po ginusto ang nangyari. Nahihiya din naman po ako sa inyo. Magagawan naman po siguro namin ng paraan ito.

Sa Panginoong Dyos, salamat po sa paggabay sa amin sa araw araw at sa pagliligtas sa amin. Mahal na mahal nyo po talaga kami.


with love,
Lily Jeciel.

Friendship Over.

Breaking up with your special someone, be it a girl or a boy, is one thing but breaking up with a friend is another.

All throughout my life, I've had many friends that I am now not friends with anymore. People told me that this is just how life is. People change, I have to accept that. But what if this time, I wanna change the equation and be the one to tell them or better yet make them feel that I don't wanna be friends with them anymore?

I've always been the understanding one. I've always been the forgiving one. Even with friends who made me look bad to other people.

So I wanna know, are there any tips for moving on with this kind of relationship? How do you guys even do it?

Earlier, I was contemplating on posting about "5 Ways to Break Up with Your Friends.", but I ended up just posting a different take and just letting my emotion get the best of me. I guess I wasn't that knowledgeable about all this stuff after all.

Please do let me know.


with love,
Lily Jeciel.

daiLY.

Here's another daiLY post from me. Where I just basically do a recap of my instagram posts.

From top to bottom.

♡ New notebook I bought at Lucina (they're located in Ayala Mall Serin Tagaytay, ground floor). I just fell in love with this notebook that I had to have it.
♡ Selfie, because why not?
♡ Another selfie I took. I just love how my face is cooperating with me all of a sudden this past few days.
♡ Spent the day with my friends at Crosswind Tagaytay. That place is just so chill and lovely. Perfect for just chilling and all.
♡ Side selfie. Angle is perfect, so I posted it.
♡ Half face selfie. Love this kind of selfie, to be honest, because eyebags.
♡ Sinigang na hipon that my sister cooked. Requested it and she actually cooked!!!
♡ Went to Mabini, Batangas again with the family. Spent 2 days just chilling and enjoying ourselves. 
♡ Throwback selfie. I just miss my old thin body.

with love,
LilyJeciel.

Most Beautiful Word.

Whenever someone would ask me what the most beautiful word for me is I always go for "LOVE". I mean, it's not like I've given it much thought.

Today though, I've realized that the word "LOVE" is not what I actually consider the most beautiful word anymore.

"MOTHER". As simple as that. I feel like I don't even have to explain it.


with love,
Lily.

Fashion related post.

Click le picture for its full size goodness.

I am just too obsessed with the dress + sneakers trend right now that I am more than willing to exchange all of my shorts and pants for every possible dress I can find. I am actually contemplating on sorting out my old clothes, having a garage sale or selling them online to have enough fund for a new wardrobe (full of dress, sneakers, and leather or denim jackets).

I feel like this trend is just so comfortable like one will feel like she's just wearing PJ's all day but actually still look adorable and dressed up at it. Hehehe.

So obviously you guys can tell that I spent countless number of hours on Pinterest and Tumblr. This is just so real, guys. Ahhh.

with love,
Lily.

Leaving this here.

Last January 12, I lost a very special person in my life. My bestfriend, "boyfriend", the one who told me to just live my life to the fullest, the person whom I've been very close to for such a short period of time.

I was so confused, sad, and angry when I learned about him passing. Up until now, I still can't believe that he's gone. I ranted at Twitter and Facebook, I know that I shouldn't have done that, but I don't know what else to do.

It was all very sudden. I've taken for granted our friendship. I thought he'll just be there and I can just contact him whenever but all of that is gone now. I won't be seeing him again, I won't be able to hear his laugh, all of his crazy ideas.

He was such a good soul. He treated me like his own sister.

Why am I even saying this stuff here? He won't know about it and he won't be able to read this anyway.

But if ever...

Tol, 

Jonathan Emil Montoya Gamboa!!! I'll miss you everyday. 

with love,
Lily Jeciel.

daiLY.

I am back with another daiLY post.

P1 : Picture taken by my super adorable nephew, Baby Aldrin. Nagreready kami papuntang Mabini, Batangas, nagkukulitan and all, nagpipicture na pala sya. Posted it because I do think I look great. Heehee.

P2 : View from our room sa Sea Spring Resort in Mabini, Batangas. Spent 2 days there. Sulit lahat ng pagod sa pagdrive for almost 4 hours at puyat. Will never say no to family trip like this one.

P3 : Selfie. Period.

P4 : First time ko nakarating sa Aguinaldo Shrine/Bahay ni Aguinaldo. Namangha ako sa ganda ng bahay nya. #HouseGoal, kung meron mang ganun.

P5 : Selfie....

P6 : Nagpunta kami sa SM kasama ang mga pamangkin ko kasi gusto ni Ate na ipalinis ang mga ngipin nila. Ang cute lang ni Baby Aldrin, tawa lang sya ng tawa the whole time na bina-brush ng Dentist ang ngipin nya. At nakapag "pogi" pose pa nga sya.

P7 : Nagpunta din kami sa S&R para bilhin yung gustong dryer ni Ate. Nakakita ako ng Ring Pop (yes, paborito kong candy, simula nung bigyan ako ni Sheryl!!!) at di nyo maiimagine kung gaano ako nagalak nun.

P8 : Selfie. Dahil di ko alam kung anong sasabihin bukod dun. GGSS, maybe.

P9 : Samgyupsal Monday is Ivann and I's new thing!!!


with love,
Lily Jeciel.

daiLY.

Eto ang pictures ng mga nangyari ng nakaraang araw. Gagawin ko ang ganitong klase ng blog post evey once in a while, para naman na-a-update ko pa din ang blog ko na ito. Hehehe.

P1 : Took a picture of the road situation in Tagaytay. Zero. Hassle magdrive, sobrang lamig pero hindi ako nagrereklamo. Mahal ko pa din ang Tagaytay.

P2 : Wine, because wine not? *wink wink*

P3 : Reposted a picture I took back in Mindoro. Nakakalungkot ang nangyari sa Mindoro during Bagyong Nona and my heart aches for everyone I got to know back there.

P4 : Enchanted Kingdom with le familia. First gala with my sister. Ang bilis ko na mahilo, di ko manlang na-enjoy ang mga rides at ni hindi ko nagala ang buong EK. Wwwhhhyyyy?!!! Tumatanda na ako.

P5 : Toasted, not fried!!!

P6 : Rain started that day after ilang months na walang ulan. Sa totoo lang ayoko ng umuulan, lalo na kapag may mga lakad at kailangang magdrive. Mas masarap magstay sa bahay at humigop ng mainit na kape.

P7 : First ride sa EK. Feeling ko eto ang reason kung bakit ang bilis kong nahilo. Ayoko talaga kasi ng rides na pa-ikot-ikot.

P8 : Sensations. Asked my sister to buy a lot at bitbitin nya pauwi. Paborito ko 'to e!!!

P9 : Nagpachange oil ng sasakyan. Gastos pero ayos na din, para di masiraan at mapadami ang gastos. Diba? Salamat PETRON Tagaytay for always taking care of my Baby Joonattan.

P10 : There's a rainbow always after the rain. Tour around Tagaytay kasi may guest kami. Saw this beautiful rainbow while walking around Picnic Grove. Iba talaga ang naiidulot ng kagandahan ng kalikasan lalo pa't may bahaghari.

P11 : Lutong bahay beats eveything else.

P12 : Korean late lunch date. Matagal tagal din kaming hindi nagkita-kita at nag-enjoy ako kahit di kami masyadong nagtagal na magkakasama. Namimiss ko yung dating samahan.



with love,
Lily.

Better life.

Circumstances in life thought me to be the person I am right now. Lessons ; I learned a lot of those all through out my life and I can say that it made me a much better person.

All I ever wanted before was to impress everyone around me, to make them love me, even if all I was saying to them was full of bull. I know, not a good move. But that's what my friends and people around me taught me. All I did was please them and make them happy, and I can say that I wasn't even happy and proud of the person I was before.

It caused my life. When they learned that I was just sugar coating everything about my life and that I was not the person I am pretending to be around them.... They left me. Alone. All by my self.

That caused me to be depressed. I was suicidal and all I did was cry and sleep. It was not a good year.

I am not posting this here for people to pity me. It's just a move I really wanted to do even before. I am brave enough to post it now and let everyone know about my life. Maybe someone will get to read this, maybe it can help them. Maybe.

I want everyone to know that life is not supposed to be fair. You can't sugar coat everything about it and you don't have to please everyone, you can't let their happiness go first before your very own happiness. This is your life. Be happy.

with love,
Lily J.

I survived my self.

Few years back, I was a mess. All I did was stay in my room, watch Korean series and movies all day, sleep, eat and sleep again. I didn't talk to anyone beside my Mom. All I did was sleep because when I'm awake, my brain kept on thinking about how messed up my life was and all I wanna do is just end my life. Suicide. I was suicidal. I prayed, I prayed and asked HIM to just take me. I was a mess.

Fast forward to today, I am thankful. I am happy. My life is not where I wanted it to be right now, I feel stressed out sometimes, but I am thankful and happy. I am trying. I survived.

Looking back to that part of my life, I don't laugh about it, I can't. I don't even tell it to anyone. Instead I use it to focus and motivate my self to be the better person that I have to be.

It was hard, I can say that it was the hardest part of my life. I don't wanna go back to that version of my self. I still cringe whenever I think about it. I feel the heaviness I felt that time.

I am a better person. I am thankful. I am happy. That's what matters most right now. I pray not for the same reason I prayed before, I pray to thank HIM for the blessings he gave me and for HIS guidance. For the blessing of Family, Friends and for not giving up on me when I was questioning HIM.

with love,
Lily J.

Random Thoughts

I grew up in a kind of conservative family. All my life I was thought to be a good citizen of the world. Hahaha.

I started drinking when I was 21 years old. Of course that's not an issue now. I don't even go out late before, my routine was the typical House-School-House routine. My father would send me bazillion messages if ever I wasn't home by 6PM. Goodness. I can't even deal.

The 'rents wasn't actually strict. They actually let me be the person that I wanna be all those times. I can say that I choose being that kind of girl before. I don't like them getting upset just because of me.

That's kind of different now. I know that I am being too stubborn. I'd stay up late and won't go home unless I needed something from there. I just don't like being there, I feel so alone there. Yes, my parents house is where I should be staying. everything that I needed daily is there as well but what can I do? That house is too big for me. As what I've said, I feel alone there.

I am sorry for whatever I am doing wrong. I feel guilty for causing my parents worry and headache/

Lily.

Mother's Day rant.

I just wanna tell you guys something about my Mother, well, I have an excuse to do that today since it is Mother's Day.

First of all, Happy Mother's Day to the most caring and loving mother that I know, I am very happy and grateful for having her as my Mom. At times, I get mad at her because of simple things (because she won't give me what I want) and we argued about things (because I am a stubborn one). We all take our Mothers for granted at times, I did it countless times but deep inside me, I know that I still value her opinions and I'd always think of what she'll probably do if she's in my situation. I caused a lot of pain and heartache to my mom but she's still there for me, understanding and loving me unconditionally.

My mom took all the responsibility ever since my father stopped working. She worked and provided for the family. She opened up a small business and from there, she provided us everything we needed, even material things that we wanted.

I love my mom. Every child do love their mom, I know that, but my mom is my hero. She is like Wonder Woman to me.

Sincerely,
Lily J.

Nothing.

I've never felt so unimportant as I feel it right now. Why do I feel like nobody needs me and that I am just a void to this world? I can't seem to understand anything and do anything.

Sincerely,
Lily J.

Why Am I Hurting?

May 5, 2015.

I am posting this out of emotional breakdown. I may do this every once in a while for I am like a ticking bomb. I am full of anger and I may be a funny girl to some people but I am a very sensitive girl as well. I tend to over think things, I know that doing that is bad for me but that's just the way I am. I am thinking every second, my mind is full of crazy, beautiful and ugly thoughts.

Sincerely,
Lily J.

Lazy bum.

May 4, 2015.

I’m sorry for not updating today. I was kind of busy the whole day. Also - I got a bit lazy opening 

my laptop and typing anything, can a blogger have writers block as well? Hahahaha. As if I am a 

real one, eh?

So I opened my mails today and found 3 emails from my boss. I am overwhelmed by what he 

instructed me to do. This would be my first time working for someone I haven’t met and actually 

working and being a blogger for a solid business. I am overwhelmed.

I wanna back out and tell him that I can’t do what he wanted me to do but that would only mean 

that I am a quitter. I wanna try doing this and excelling at it. Whatever, I don’t wanna live a life 

full of what if’s!!! Hehehehe. I can do whatever he wanted me to do, after all, that is what I really

 wanna do with my life. Eventually I won’t have cold feet and just enjoy whatever I have to do.

My boss sells ticket for concerts and theater events and I love going to concerts, especially KPOP 

ones. I was quite happy and delighted when he contacted me and told me that I’ll be the official 

blogger of the business. I mean, who wouldn’t be? Concerts and blogging, all rolled in one. 

Ha! Life is beautiful, eh?

Sincerely,

Lily J.

The Road to The World.

May 3, 2015.

The girl is thinking about changing it’s url/domain name from “lilysbumlife” to “thatgirlsroadtotheworld” or “theroadtotheworld”. What do you think? Those new domain name sounds only fitting to what the girl want the world to know about her. The girl thought about it while doing her monkey business at the comfort room. Hehehehe.

I asked my friend to help me with the credit card issue and she said yes. It made me quite excited. Finally I can see some improvement with what I wanna happen. After that I’d probably contact someone who can help me with the customization of the site. It is quite liberating, or maybe not. Hehehe. 

Sincerely,

Lily J.

Blank Space.

May 2, 2015.

I don’t know what to do with this site. I am thinking of getting my own domain and hiring a web 
designer or someone who have knowledge about CSS coding and everything related to it to finally 
jump 

start this site. I am really serious about blogging this time, I guess.

I talked to some people that can help me organize and clean up my site and they told me that the 
price for it won’t be cheap. Also - I need to have a credit card to be able to pay for my annual 
domain fee and I don’t have one as of now. And so things are kind of complicated right now and I 
can’t really 

start anything. 

I forgot everything that I self taught myself about CSS coding and my friend told me that some 
things about it changed. 

Any suggestions?

I wanna make this happen and for once have something that I can say that I did right and finished.

Sincerely,

Lily J.

Labor Day rant.

May 1, 2015.

Happy first day of May and happy labor day everyone. 

Uhhhh. Wouldn’t it be sweet to be in Boracay today and enjoy every activities there and basically 

just wake up to the sound of the beach and smell salt all over?

I was planning to go there for #laboracay as well, but my schedule won’t allow that to happen. 

I promise to be there next year instead. So as early as now, I’ll say, see you there.

I made an FB Page for my Mom’s business yesterday. I am kind of excited about managing it and 

letting the world know about it. Uhhhhh. Why am I so blind about it before? 

I sure am a lazy girl and a spoiled brat at the same time, but I already accepted that and I know that 

I won’t get hurt if ever I hear it from other people or even my relatives of some sort. I thought that 

my help was not needed in managing our business so all I did was go out with my friends and ask 

money from my mother. Yeah, I know. But don’t worry you guys, I know and learned my lessons 

and very excited about helping out.

And since you read about those nonsense about my life...

Coffee, anyone?

Also - this is the link to my Mom’s business FB Page = LYLETH'S EATERY.

Sincerely,

Lily J.

Free.

April 30, 2015.

So what’s your stand about Miley Cyrus’s statement about armpit hair?

I wanna talk about it because I am very very conscious about my armpit but at the same time
I don’t know if I should talk about it because then that would mean that I have to reveal every
issue I have with my armpit to the world. And besides who would wanna read about my armpit
issues? Heheheh. Whatever, I’ll probably just talk about my older sister. :D

I do agree with Miley though, why would we(girls) be conscious about showing our armpit hair?
I know it will be a case of feminism once I say this, but men can easily just wear sleeveless shirts
and show their armpit hair and no one will look at them like they just committed a serious crime.
However, we have to go through a lot of things before going out and presenting ourselves to the
world, still worrying about what people would say about our choice of clothes, our
make-up or just about anything. Let's admit it, we even have to make sure that not a single
hair is showing in other parts of our body other than the hair in our head.

My older sister once told me that I should not let other people dictate me in any way because
it is my life and I need/have to be able to freely choose whatever I want and be happy with
whatever my choice is. 

She once had lazer hair removal for her armpit and yes, it caused her hair to not grow as much
as it normally have to and she occasionally need the help of a razor but whenever she don’t feel
like shaving her armpit hair, she wouldn’t, just because she don’t want to and she don’t care
about other people judging her. 

And that’s just one of the things I admire about my older sister. 

Sincerely,

Lily J.

What I am currently.

DOING : Typing this blog post out of boredom.
HEARING : The sound of spoons and forks against the plates. Conversation between Ivann's sisters and mother.
DRINKING : Ice cold water.
FEELING : Uncomfortable and quite sleepy.
ANTICIPATING : Going to the beach with my friends.
WISHING : For the summer to just end so I can enjoy the cold here in Tagaytay.

I feel like posting something right now. I obviously copied this from Camie Juan of WildSpirit. I actually wish that I am at the beach right now, enjoying the sound of waves and watching random people enjoy their vacation but I am stuck here and I know I can do something about it but I am kind of lazy to take action. Hehehe.

I actually don't know where to go for my next out of town trip. My friends and I went to Puerto Galera for the Holy Week and all we did was island hop and sleep because on our second day there, it rained and we all know that rain and sleeping is one of the best thing in the world. :D


Sincerely,
Lily J.