Friendship Over.

Breaking up with your special someone, be it a girl or a boy, is one thing but breaking up with a friend is another.

All throughout my life, I've had many friends that I am now not friends with anymore. People told me that this is just how life is. People change, I have to accept that. But what if this time, I wanna change the equation and be the one to tell them or better yet make them feel that I don't wanna be friends with them anymore?

I've always been the understanding one. I've always been the forgiving one. Even with friends who made me look bad to other people.

So I wanna know, are there any tips for moving on with this kind of relationship? How do you guys even do it?

Earlier, I was contemplating on posting about "5 Ways to Break Up with Your Friends.", but I ended up just posting a different take and just letting my emotion get the best of me. I guess I wasn't that knowledgeable about all this stuff after all.

Please do let me know.


with love,
Lily Jeciel.

I survived my self.

Few years back, I was a mess. All I did was stay in my room, watch Korean series and movies all day, sleep, eat and sleep again. I didn't talk to anyone beside my Mom. All I did was sleep because when I'm awake, my brain kept on thinking about how messed up my life was and all I wanna do is just end my life. Suicide. I was suicidal. I prayed, I prayed and asked HIM to just take me. I was a mess.

Fast forward to today, I am thankful. I am happy. My life is not where I wanted it to be right now, I feel stressed out sometimes, but I am thankful and happy. I am trying. I survived.

Looking back to that part of my life, I don't laugh about it, I can't. I don't even tell it to anyone. Instead I use it to focus and motivate my self to be the better person that I have to be.

It was hard, I can say that it was the hardest part of my life. I don't wanna go back to that version of my self. I still cringe whenever I think about it. I feel the heaviness I felt that time.

I am a better person. I am thankful. I am happy. That's what matters most right now. I pray not for the same reason I prayed before, I pray to thank HIM for the blessings he gave me and for HIS guidance. For the blessing of Family, Friends and for not giving up on me when I was questioning HIM.

with love,
Lily J.